My other mates and I were called to the principal office this morning.The principle herself shouted at the top of her lung and curted on how bad-behaving we are.OH WELL,WELL,WELL.I never fail to put that OH-SO-WHAT'S-THE-NEXT-SHIT-YOU-GONNA-THROW look on my face.I can say we were actually detained and I could hold no shit of 'em no more and OH FORTUNATELY,BABY one of my teacher came in and said I was needed for the Drama practice.

My teacher who came in finally asked me what is actually going on and well,I told him everything and I was laughin' also at the same time.So he was like 'you aren't afraid at all??' and I was like 'I AINT GONNA BE LESS STURDY'.

'Yes,you're a very strong girl.Very weird,also.When everybody cried,you didn't.You have your whole self on your own',said he.Strangers must've thought I'm one scaredy cat.I look like one.Anybody who is closest to me must've known I'm actually one strong girl.I have the whole control of myself.I know how to mask everything.I know how to change people's judgement to me.But NOBODY,NOBODY,have ever ever know how once I came back home,I would break down and sit in one isolated corner in my room and have a good cry.

Everything is practically taken away from me.Ryoshi said to me last night that he wanted to grow some distance between us until he feels good again.Zima and I aren't that close no more.We don't have much time for each other.My BEST BEST mates thought our eternal-called happiness is gonna come to a sudden end.Mom've changed.Dad have too.They're busier than ever and I don't think I can confide in with 'em anymore.I'm losing myself.I've never felt this depressed for the whole months of 2011.I thought it was gonna be my year.OUR year,too.I've archieved a lot of things I never thought I would.I could see a future is shining.I could see me,being happiest,every single day and excell in studies.But no,it no turn out that way.It initially was,but yes,I screwed up.My school's dicipline teacher was taken aback to hear my surname.I came from a family that everybody respects.Well,almost.I got in in a school where only the best would be accepted.I got in in an additional class where only the best could be got in.I got in in competitions where only the best could win.I AM ALWAYS THE BEST AND NOTHING CAN EVER EVER BE ON MY WAY.


Exam starts tommorow.I've got to be unruffled.Completely,unruffled.I need to keep these things aside and start to focus more on my studies.This ain't gonna last forever.I'll improve this mid-year though I have no complete preparation.I'll be stronger after I analyse all the obstacles I've been facing for the whole years of my life.I'll smile and say ' see? all those people and things who had been trying to ruin my life,merely made me even more sturdy.'